Words Unsaid...Random Thoughts.. Memories and Experiences

I guess they say right …atleast if not 100% but then ya it works for most of the times …. when the start of the day is good …whole day is good …but when its bad … hmm things aren’t that nice … :( … If I start my day with some enthu the enthu is carried thru out the day n its true the other way round too …. Has this got to do something with our thinking too ??? could be … coz whenever we have some kind of positive thoughts we are cheerful …. And full of life But then........ when something is not right u feel bad and u lose interest …n also all the enthu goes down the drain …. So cud be that when something goes wrong at the start of the day we just get a negative feeling … and so we carry that along with us the whole day … May b if we forget it and carry a good feeling with us …that day might turn out to be good !! Lemme try that today ..... :)

Friend ..... This word carries a lot of weightage ... A kind of complicated role to play ..... So many hidden reponsibilities ...so much fun ... so many goodie gooodie things that come with it ... I just realised a few more things that are assoicated with this Role ... u cud say its a responsibility .... ya it is ... maintain confidentiality of the revealed things ... n never discuss it with anyone else ........ we say smthings to our nearest n dearst friends only with an intention to lighten our hearts .... may b 90% of the times all a friend has to do is just say a few words of sympathy and nothing more required.... u feel so good by just telling it to them ,....may b some times all the friend can do is keep quite ... no words said ... but u feel so good .... as if half the problem is solved !! but then ..... some times .... some things get messed up when the inner most feelings of ur heart are revealed to soem third person .. by ur friend ... :( that person might b as close as u

Loong long time since i blogged !! Hmm may be people say it right !! if u dont manage ur time then u rnt fit for anything .... guess thats what happened with me too ! :(tied up with work ...unable to balance work life ... work took over my private life ... :( so almost 20 hours ina day spent with it ... why do i do this ? is it only me who's facing it or there are some people like me ? I too feel like doing what i like ...just laze around ...sit on the window side enjoying the breeze and sipping hot coffee .. but .......... when will i do it ? hmm may b i need to be organised !! but i dont like being too organised also :P guess its the problem with my thinking and nothing to do with the time sense and all that !!! :)

Silence .................... " A man is known by the silence he keeps. " --Oliver Herford, American author (1863-1935) " True friendship comes when silence between two people is comfortable . "--Dave Tyson Gentry Woow silence has so much significance !! may b i never realised untill recently !! may be coz I had always been hearing that we shud speak up .....we shudnt keep quite .... if we remain silent they wud pull us down etc etc ......... but may b now i feel that silence can speak more than words .... It can express any kind of a emotion ..... It cud be expressing ur diagreement to something whats said .... or wildness to what's happening ..... or disappointment in job hunting ..... or ur thankfulness towards a friend for being there with u !! Is it true that u feel comfortable with a person when the silence between the two is comfortable ? .... hmmmmmmmm... lemme think over ... n i guess thats right .... when u dont feel comfortable with silence then i gu

How many times do we ask this question !! Everytime something goes wrong the first thing what comes out of our mouth is why me ! ... i used to use this a lot.... when in school .. when i used to get some scolding i used to ask myself why of all the people i got scoldings ? ... then when in college got some bad marks in labs .. again why me ?... when had to hear some comments from my relatives again why me ! But......................... I dont ever remember asking myself this question when ..... i got the highest marks ... or when i won some competition ... or when i meet nice sweet people ... nor when i get the best of people around as my friends ... or when i get a job in one of the Best firms !!.. or when i hear some of the best compliments about myself :) why do i do this ? ... No replies coming out from me !!

I am on my way to meet some of my dearest n sweetest friends ... woo i met them ... its such a nice n sweet feeling to be with ur dear ones ... we chatted spoke laughed ate drank cried screamed .... this went on .. i was the most happiest person ... i felt on top of the world ... was feeling so light after pouring out my heart to them n hearing some nice words from them which made me think that after all its not all that bad !! n then after all this it was time for me to depart ... cud hear some byes .. .n now here i am all alone ... felt as if everything happened in a dream ... time just flies ... just a moment before i was the most happiest person with so many people around ... n now just a moment later all are gone an am all alone with no one around !! Guess life is like that ... one moment it gives u thousands of reasons to smile and the very next moment u feel that no one else would be in a worser condition that urs ...... but .... then ...... may b coz of these only we know t

woh din bhi kya the jab hum duniya ke dukh dard se waakif na the ... hum aur humaari duniya mein hi hum log khush the .... kisi cheeze ki parwaah na thi ... parwaah thi tho bas apne marks ki ...woh bhi teacher aur papa mummy ke dar se ...warna tho uski bhi chintha na thi ....Those were probably the best days of my life ... thats the school life ... i did my schooling in a small place jo nature ki godhi mein tha .... and we were unaware of urbanism .... we werent instersted in theatres as there were no theatres in our place ... our time pass was to go for a walk or to go n play with friends ...tv wasnt the priority at all ....we 6 friends used to walk n walk for about a couple of kmts on a road which wud lead to the dam .... the road was just awsome with trees on both sides adn absolute silence ... the only noise wud be the birds chiring and the wind blowing thru the leaves ... we wud chat scream laugh and then sometimes get emotional .... then try to get back home before its dark ... t

In our busy schedule we forget to enjoy the little pleasures of life … there are so many things which we forget to notice … we keep running behind things which might not give us even 10% happiness what we get from things which we can never buy with money !! just see the smile on the face of a kid when u get a chocolate … watch the kitten playing with a marble … the kids playing with water … calf running around in the field …having hot hot bhutta and walking on a drizzling day … long walks with a lovely friend with never ending talks accompanied .. building sand castles in beach … enjoying the sunset in the sea shore …collecting shells on sea shore … meeting an old friend over coffee … enjoying the coffee watching the pouring rain .. Happiness on the face of the lady of the house when u compliment her for the dishes she cooked … etc etc … Do we actually spend time with our loved ones ?? do we get to enjoy the small pleasures in life ? I guess we have forgotten how to enjoy the

Why is it soo difficult to express how u feel … its soo complicated to put into words about ur feelings !! might be about anything !! for example how happy u felt when u met some one … or how … bla bla u felt when u saw a rotten rat … or how sad u felt when some on went away … or even how excited and thrilled u were when u went for an outing !! why is it so ? and y is it that sometimes we want to tell so many things but words just don’t come out … and sometimes we don’t have anything to tell but still we blabbering so much !! hmm interesting isn’t it ? u want to tell it u cant tell … u tell something which is not at all close to what u feel … u don’t find the right words and find urself so lost .. . is it so difficult to express what u feel ?? and also whom u feel like telling is also another thing !! u wont feel like telling anything to some ..and 24 hrs in a day aren’t enough to tell things to some of ur dear ones !! hmm … may be that’s why some ppl don’t dare to express themselves a

mere khayal mein dosti ek aisa rishta jo har rishtey se nirala hai...friendship plays an important role in everyone's life .... frineds do manage to infulence our lives... some in positive way and some in negetive way too ... but then tehy do have a strong influence on our lives, .... they give a helping hand when in need ... listen to u patiently when u have stories to tell ... have fun with u when u are in a mood for fun ... share the food u want to try out though it wud be bad !! and also compliment u when u least expect :) u be urself with them .... no barriers n no hesitation toooo ... u can just tell out whatever u feel like .... u get some feed back too as to what can be done regarding that .... u can rely upon them any time of the day ... jitna bhi bolo utna kam hai actually ... waise dekhne jao tho they are far far better than many of ur relatives who pretend to be close to u when u r happy n run away when u need them or ask 4 some help .....Friendship lives forever ......

City life .... most of them feel that its a prestige to stay in the cities !! when i was young i used to stay in a colony ..this was in the middle of the jungle with aorund 200-250 houses ...the whole place was like a well knit family ... most of them knew most of the people and the happenings in theire lives ... lots of get togethers wud be happening ,.. i still remember my mom and aunties of the colony excahnging the dishes what they prepare .... the share whatever special they have prepared with atleast a couple of them ... then we kids playing together with no fear of getting run over by speeding vehicles ... sit out in the cool breeze whenever there wud b power cuts ... (which used to be atleast half an hour a day ) ..... try to make a garden in the smallest available space in the back yard .... wait for the flower to bloom in the plant we planted .... enjoy each and eevry festival with full enthusiasm irrespective of the region we wud be from ....etc etc ... then the time started

Howz it Staying without ur dear ones around!! · Coffee without sugar · Cake without sugar n icing · Pheeka dal · Newspaper without interesting articles · A bland greeting without colors…. · Black n white tv pe chitrahaar · Chats that aren’t chatpati · Ekta kapoors soaps without ladies in jhig mig sarees and accessories · Bollywood films without heroin telling senti dialogues · Lonely puppy separated from its offsprings · Soggy chips · Starless Sky on a clear night · Weekend party without music !! Etc etc

"Life is like having a cup of tea. You sit by the side of the window, lift the cup and take a careless sip, only to realize, somebody forgot to put the sugar. Too lazy to go for it you somehow struggle through the sugarless cup....till you discover undissolved sugar crystal sitting at the bottom... ---That's LIFE " How true !!!

Thoughts to ponder .... How many times have we felt that we are good for nothing ... or may be we are useless ... we are a waste ... dharti pe bhoj etc etc .. The count will be almost equal to the number of stars in the sky cloudless nite.. Y is that we feel down at times ... is it coz we feel guilty that we haven't done our best though we had the ability to do or is it that we are not keeping the expectations of others or is it that we are not satisfied with ourselves !!...sigh .. there are so many reasons for us to feel down !! It all depends on our priorities !! but then such thoughts can be so disastrous at times ,...... lease harm done is mental disturbance ... with a lot of inferiority complex added to the previously existing ones .... n the maximum harm is end of life :( ... the in between depth of impact of these thoughts include bad very very bad thoughts ...withdrawing oneself from everything ...hesiatate to publicise ... hate to discuss anything about self .. drift away

Love :)

Thinks that make u go eeeeeks and iiiiiisssssssssshhhhhhh... A flying cockroach A slimy worm creeking noise when a metal chair is pulled Open deep wound ... Some one serving food with dirty hands Travelling in a crowded bus with no space to breathe Ur favourite eatable falling down when u wanted to have the first bite muddy water splashed by a vehicle on ur white dress Rotten tomato power failure when ur watching ur fav show or listening to ur fav song totally messed up bed when u r feeling veryyy tired and sleepy getting a worm in ur food etc etc ,....many more got left out :D

People people ........there are so many varieties of ppl in this world .. soooooooooo many ... infact each one is diff that the other !!-some people are so self centered that they cant c anyone else -some people are just the opposite .. they dont see into their homes instead keep sneaking into people's matters...-some others are happy when others make progree ... goodie goodie types -some try to pull people down when they make some progress though that wont affect them in anyway !!-few people do a little good and a little bad to others .. :)-some run behind money ..some behind fame ..some after people .. few after peace .. etc etc May be coz of the diff varities of ppl only teh world is such an interesting place to stay in :D

world's getting closer or are we drifting away from each other ? I was just wondering whether the world is getting more close radn more closely knit coz of the modern communication or are we actually drifting awaay from each other coz of this modernisation? in the sense we may have many many means to communicate with our dear ones but then do we actually feel close to them ? do we have time for them ? or have we involved ourselves too much into our work ... ?? hmm donno what we are up to !! whole world seems to be moving so fast !!

Bus mein ek din .. was travelling in a local bus when this incident happened !! had to travel for an hour or so ... a very old man got into the bus in the middle ... to his luck there was an empty seat where he cud sit.. he looked pretty old with lot of wrinkles on his face and his dhoti and muddy shirt indicated that he was from a village ... after a couple of stops teh bus got crowded and then there was no place for the passengers to stand too...but the greedy bus waala was pushing in how many ever ppl he cud !! in one of the stops a young married lady got into the bus ... she too looked from the rural area ..she was having a baby in her hand ... no one in the bus including me got up to give her place to sit ... when the bus started the lady was finding it difficult to handle the baby ...immediately the old man( who himself cudnt stand ) got up n gave her the seat .. seeing this i felt ashamed ... was feeling sooo guilty ... but then i was so dead tired after a loooooooong working da

" Work like you don't need the money, love like you've never been hurt and dance like no one is watching. " One of my favourite quotes (though i dont agree to the first part :D ) ... the rest two are good ,,, especially the last one ...how true it is ...most of us feel so conscious when some one is around when we are dancing ... when we are alone we dont mind making twists and turns ... but when some ones around we feel so concsious !! but then ya dancing is a way to express urself !! cud be sadness or joys !! Music is the first pre req required ... though !! it need not be elegant or according to the music or of some category ... all u need to do is tap ur foot and move ur hands and some twists !!

Everyone can make the difference : I once heard a story about a gy who was walking along the sea shore and was throwing awy the start fish which were along the shore into the water again. There comes another man and asks him "how many will u throw .. there are so many lying ..it wont make much of a differnce" ... then teh frist guy picks up another star fish and tells " i made a difference to this !! " ... This story kind of made me think in every action i do !! for eg .. when i waste water i think may be me saving a pot of water will make some diff ..me not wasting food makes a diff to someone etc etc !! may be its true too !! if we all think that we can make some diff and we keep doing out part then there will b some diff ..some good thing done somewhere !! :) just a thought !! when i feed any stray animal i feel that it will be satisfied atleast for next few hours ... when i give some extra money to a road side vendor i feel may be she/he will feel happy ...et

Staying away from ur dear ones !! Good or bad ? we friends always ahve a discussion , argument on this topic !! may be a nice topic to debate on though !! when friends are apart most of the times they arent in touch with the small small happenings of each others lives ... initially they might try their level best to be up to date bout the happenings but then as time passes both learn to live by themselves !! they dont tell the small small things to the other one as the other one wont be aware of the past incidents about it ... and also when u rnt face to face and are talking to ur friend u generally have so many major thinsg to talk about that u wont get time and also to some extent wont remember to tell the small small incidents cud be good ones or bad ones !! but when u r near to them ... u can meet them often u tell them what all happened that day what u felt what made u ahppy what made u sad and all those ... which cant be expressed to a friend who is far off !! also u wudnt like t

Is the place we stay an important criteria if we have teh right ppl with us ?.... could be it is but then not when u ahve all ur fav ppl around ... with a good compay i guess any place can be fun !! its all in ur attitude !!if u decide to have fun coem what may then u will have fun even if u are in the desert :D am i right ? ya def i am ... and may be when u dontahve many options probably u try to have the best of the companions !! could be that u will get to interact more with the ppl around u ... when u have a lot of options u donno what to decide on !! may be just thinking positive ;) what say ? he he

Aise hi kuch !! And in the end it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years. -- Abraham Lincoln The best way to cheer yourself is to cheer somebody else up. -- Mark Twain

Coffeeeeeeeee ... hmm the very thought of coffee makes me feel fresh !! am i addicted ? naaaaaaaaaah !! coz addiction is something without which u cant stay !! u feel uncomfortable without having that but then i dont feel anything like that !!so i guess (n also i hope :)) that i am not addicted !! he he !! so coming back to the topic ... COffee ... dont know just felt like writing something about this drink which refreshes me most of the times i drink !! and the refreshment is the maximum when i have mom made filter coffee !! :) ..but then roz roz nahi miltha woh :( ..but then its ok !! anyways i jsut love coffee ...n i donno why !! during my PUC days whenever we used to go out all my friends used to have soft drinks after eating soemthing n mine was fixed ...Coffee !! they used to be like ... not again !! Even in the hot sun i dont mind !! Many of my friends used to scare me telling that i will get addicted to that and also it contains harful some stuff n all that but thatnever stopp

Missing all my friends a lot .... feeling so bad !! Remembering all my friends right from ... school days ... college days and my work friends ... those were the days !!! had some one or the other with me ... never alone ... and now here i am most of the time all alone ... but thanks to the advanced science !! communication is so easier now a days !! am always with phone ... always trying to be in touch with my near n dear friends !! and trying to reduce the physical distance between us !! hmmm

e-Mails ....Initially when i was in school we used to keep in touch with our near n dear ones thru letters ... especially post cards .. coz we were too young then .. then came inland letters ... by then in urban areas telephone was already the major means of communication ....... i remember writing letters to my friends posting them and expecting a reply from them ... i wud be so happy to receive the reply that i wud reply to them also immediately .... then i went to hostel where there was only one phone for around 500 girls :( n so there were 2 options either i call my parents ( that too we didnt have a phone at home then ...so call up our neighbour .... :( ) or write letters .... as our hostel dead line was 6.30 it wud b difficult for me to call up even once a week ... so i chose to write to them ... i got a huge stock of inland letters n kept in my room ... i wud write to my dad every alternative day and he wud also reply back ... so i wud have atleast 2 letters in a week ... a

July 7th 2005 , I was sooooooooo happy .. u know why ? coz i gt to know that i wud be sooon meeting all my dear n near friends ..... :) ...n it was the right time for me to go there coz ... joy coming back from onsite .... n jk leaving to Ireland :)I was all set for an exciting one months stay with them ...i was sooo excited .... went there one day before i was supposed to join office ...i had lovely time there ... one month of non stop fun masti and unlimited talks ... woow ... guess ise kehthe hain dosti aur dosti ke faayde !! little did i know that i wud get another wonderful 10 days with them ,,, but then guess bhagwaan was more karunamayi n he gave that tooo.... hmm ..so i had soem more fun ..some more sentiments ...some more discussions and not to forget some mroe treats tooo .... :) ..but amidst all this JK left to his trip ...so me started getting the sympotoms of "missing friends" syndrome ... it started just before a week of my departure from that place ... :( ...i

Mysore Se Ooty Part 4 ..... So hum log after breakfaat all geared up started our safar .... we were stunned seeing the beauty of "mother earth"... me n surya stuck in the back seat with all the luggage cudnt enjoy the greenary .... fro us everything was brown mixed ... coz we were watching from the galss which cudnt be opened :( .... initially it was fine ... we were concentrating on the views .... later we reached the Bandipur forest area ......... there we both started (me more rebelling actually ) fighting for our rights ... we told that it was unfair that we had to sit at the back n that we cudnt see nything much etc etc ... in the meanwhile we saw a herd of deer in the jungle ... joyee cracked a pj telling that it was their play ground .... then we saw a deer with huge horns just beside the road ...we were so close to it ... it was posing for the foto actually :) but later we realised that it was scared of the photographer who was accompanied by another fellow on the bik

mysore Se ooty part 3................. Next day morning the alarm rang at 6.30... surya had set it .... she woke up ... n she said that soem one knocked our door ...when we saw no one was there ...we thought it wud be one of our aaju baaju people .... and so we continued what we were doing earlier .. that is me sleeping and then choori getting ready ...... b4 slipping into my second round of sleep i thought of giving a wake up call to my neighbours and i did that :) ...then i went back to my dreamland .... "jyo get up ...its already 7.30 ... " choori waking me up .... she was almost ready ... we had planned to leave our rooms by 8 ..... me wanted to chk if all our neighbours are awake especially the kumbakarn of our group .... so gave a missed call ... here i get the call back ... oh that means even he is awake ... :( now i have to come out of my bed and get ready .... me got out of bed ... got ready in a record of 15 min .... we were about to leave by then choori got a call

mysore se ooty part2 ............ ......... Finally we reached the mysore ofc ...........woooooooooooow its such a huge place ...... it was like never ending scapes of land and buildings and ground n etc etc ... with some amount of chking and all that we were let inside ,... then 10 more min to get the keys of the rooom and then yoooooo we were in our rooms ....me n surya in 443 ...jay JK in 444 .... n the couple in 442 ;)..... Rooms were just awsome ... me n surya were just trying to relax ... we heard some hard knocks on our door ... that moment we knew it wud be those two monkeys ... and yo it was them... as their room wasnt ready they had coem to take some rest in our room ... and they behaved as if they owned the room .... they snatched the remote but finally found that it wasnt working ,...so got the remote from their room n started watching some sports channels :( .... then me n surya were hungry so we opened the chips packets kept in the room ... we had a couple of them by then

Mysore se ooty part1..... Aug 12th to aug 15th 2005 ..... It was a long weekend ... and so that called for some amount of fun .... we had been kind of lucky coz other wise i was supposed to return back to mlore that weekend and also Jumbo was supposed to travel to Ireland on that friday ... but then luckily both of these got postponed and so we had a nother weekend which we cud spend together ... n so we planned for a trip ... i suggested that we go to my home and along with it visit Mlore too ... but joyees health conditions did not let us decide that place :( ... so we finally decided we go to mysore and ooty ... (Ooty was the idea of the couple involved ;) ) ... so the plan was made that we wud visit mysore and ooty ... the silent beauty of the group also was all set to come with us .... the plan was made the previous day ... of the journey ... as usual last minute decisions .... we started on saturday ... i had to start at 7.30 go to silk board and meet them ... i reached on time .