Words Unsaid...Random Thoughts.. Memories and Experiences

Next day Again … I yielded to my parents plan … just thinking may be that wud make them glad that for once am listening to them ……….. Temple Visit …. So many people …of all classes of people … Some ladies wearing all the gold they had … Some of the ladies in faded sarees .. no ornaments at all .. Both kinds bowing their head infront of almighty … People praying …. Some people had short prayers ..some Stood for long in front of God … Kids running .. some people chanting mantras and singing songs loudly …. Come out and you had a “Jaatre” going on … U cud see so many colorful stuffs … Different reactions of people … Some people … covering theuir face with hankies and rushing to get out of the place … Some … enjoying their stroll in that over crowded road … Some others bargaining …. Shop keepers calling customers by quoting their offers Kids crying for want of toys …Mothers scolding kids … Wives stopping at every stall .... Husbands pulling wives out of the shops … People calling their fri

This Weekend …. It was different ………. Decide for a movie in local theatre … Ticket costed somewhere around 40-50 instead of 150-250 ………. 10Rs a pack of popcorn … No fancy food items … Cudnt see Lays , kurkure , little heards ka packets …. Nor cud see pepsi – miranda bottles … People happy with roasted peanuts , potato chips , banana , Parle G , puffs n samosas ….. they drank chai , coffee and soda Not many rules like u cant carry eatables inside … No bomb scare ka security …. Local crowd …. Some guys trying to be heros by flashing their sun glasses and mobile phones … Married Ladies dressed very traditionally with all kinds of accessories , flowers … standing behind their hubbies and talking in whispers … College\ school going gals ….eating Bhel and … Waiting for the watchman to let them in …. Cud hear all local languages ...like kannada , tamil and some bits and pieces of hindi … but no English sentences spoken … Musical whistles at every ”Super” dialogue … Load laughs at every co

Go on a looooooong drive Speeding vehicle ... Lots of greenary around ..... Traffic free roads ... Heavy wind blowing through my hair ... Nice company Soothing music playing .... but still experiencing the silence Play with cats and dogs ... Innocent..Playful ... cute and active ... full of life Lie on a green patch under the open sky and Watch the moon and stars ........... cool Breeze ... Star studded sky... Bright lit moon .... softness of grass below... silent night.... music of the night insects .. Wandering mind..with many thoughts Enjoy the cool breeze in the beach .... music of the waves ... sprikling water on to my face ... soft sand under my feet ... the feeling of sand slipping away when i walk ... Trying to pull me also into the water... sky meeting the sea at horizon .. Salty feeling ... Have a llllllllllllong chat with friends ................... no obligations ...no second thoughts.... total comfort zone ... no deadline ... no searching for topics .. no secrets ... no

How i wish .............. I Never had to work but get BIG salary at the end of month .... Never missed my buses .... Get to finish my sleep completely ......... Never had to give excuses for coming late ... or missing deadline ... Never had to study for exams but still get through ........ Legs never hurt even after walking lonnnnnnnnnnnng distances ........ Never had to stay away from people close to my heart....... Never ran out of words when i have so much to tell :) Shop shop and shop but wallet never gets light ..... All bills are paid on time automatically Reach office in 15 mins ... and on the way back also take only 15 mins to reach back home ... and the list goes on n on n on ...

"kehne ko saath apane ek duniya chalti hai pAr chhupke is dil mein tanhaayi palti hai bas yaad saath hai " These are bits of the Lyrics of a song ...to which I have been listening to the past of couple of days ...

Confused ?????????????? Sad ………….?????????????? Frustrated ............... ?????????????? Bored................... ????????????? Lonely ...................... ? Or Is there Nothing at alll ???????????????????? And am just assuming things ..................

Ignorance .... Cud be : Not knowing at all about the topic ...when u dont know ...no tension at all Knowing but then not paying attention .... Dont want to know ... so not paying heed ... but then ... is it good? guess Good in many situations .... No tension whether the data is correct or incorrect No headache to find a solution Not worryig about the consequences of that ... May be ... Its good ... ....

Whyy ? Why does murphy's law always come true to most of us ............ One day u want to come early ... and that day u all possible things go wrong ..... and u end up late than usual ..... The day u are free u wont have anybody around to hang out with .. and the day you have the busiest day at work … everybody wants to talk to u .. U take umbrella everyday and it doesn’t rain at all …. The day U don’t take umbrella and it rains . For once u don’t want anyone to notice …. The whole world stares at u ……… When u want to talk to some one u never get through …. But all unwanted people get through ur number. Everyday u go on time no one notices … The day u go late everybody knows u r late and so the list goes on .............. But whyy ….. ????

Johny ko gussa aaya tho ... Mein kya kar sakti hoon .... Chillu bhar paani mein dubki maarne ko bol.... Apne aap thanda ho jaayega gussa ... khali pili nautanki ....

Naam ... name ... thats for people to refer a person with ... sometimes ...u do naamkaran urself to some people .. cud be coz u like them a lot ..so may b u call then nick names ...like choti ... bubli ..putti ..etc etc ... or cud be coz u hate them so ....like nakchadi ...egoistic ... devil ... bhootni ... etc etc or cud be just coz u talk about them a lot so u dnt want people to know that u are talking about them .... Everyone of us does this .... some of the names have been coined by me also..under diff situations ........ which cant be forgotten ... think about it and Ifeel like laughing :) Chaatu ...... Ponk ... Pig.... hushh ..... kona .... Heroin .... Side actor .......... Lemon rice ............ Akashvani tiruvanantapuram ......... Kal ho na ho ................ DDLJ ........... Blue annan......... salman khan ........... Pinkies .......... Rajni ........... Itseems ...........

Missing all my people ..... with whom .....I spill my dil ................ I can be myself ................. No false expressions ............. No false promises ................... No obligations ..................... No hich kich ...... Comfortable with ..... Looong talking hours ….. but still have so much to tell .............. Arguments but compromise at the end .............. Complete silence but some kind of satisfaction that u hv shared smthing....... Smile that gives u strength.......... Hand that holds you when u are about to fall.......... Head that thinks when u are blank ... Gives u suggestions when u are thinking on wrong side .... Shows u light when all u can see is darkness ahead ..... Can make me feeel at the top of the world... Can make me feel safe ............ Makes me feel wanted ... Gives me some reasons to look forward in the coming days .... To all My people .... who are away from me but still keep up my spirits ........ I MISS YOU ALL !! Wish I cud be with you !

“There is so much good in the worst of us, And so much bad in the best of us, That it hardly behooves any of us To talk about the rest of us. “ Says Edward Wallis Hoch But still people never give up talking about others …. They never realize that it would affect others life forever ! …. They might be doing irreparable damage …. Hurting their emotions … telling something which is not true at all .. …..but still they want to do it … Why cant they mind their own business … ??? Are they jealous?? Are they afraid that you might overpower them ? They might just be pure sadists who find happiness in somebody’s suffering !!!! Some do it just for timepasss!! It hurts to hear things which aren’t true … It hurts to see that ur life changes just coz people might talk ,,,.. It hurts to see that things are not the way u want just coz its not as per what people want !! Why cant people live their life and let others live the way they want !!

How much do the "Others" influence our life? I would say lotssssssssssssssssss....................... some inspire us .... some demotivate us .... some encourage us ... some discourage us Some console us ..... some of them rub salt on our wounds .... some laugh when we cry .. some lend shoulders when we cry .... Some pull us down ..some help us get to the top ... Wish i could come across only the supportive ones and could avoid the Bad ones .....

If u want something ...and u dont get it If u cry .. u are called a cry baby.... If u stay cool ... saying u didnt deserve then u are called a stone ..... emotionless person ... If u laugh ...U are mad .... If u fight back to get it ...u r arrogant .... If u let it go ...u are non competitive ... lack enthusiasm ...pessimist ... Then how shud i react ????????????

Within my book of memories, Are special thoughts of you. And all the many nice things You often say and do - As I turn the pages, And recall each single thought, I realize the happiness That knowing you has brought. There are memories of the times we've shared Both bright and sunny days. There are memories of your kindness And your friendly thoughtful ways. There are memories of all those notes, we would write back and forth, When we would just get together, And talk of this or that. And when I recall these memories As I go along life's way, I find they grow more precious stillWith every passing day. --by Annabelle

Memories from childhood stay with us forever, Taking us where we have been and will go, Pieces of life that live on and will neverLet us forget we were young long ago. Sometimes I wander back into those shadows, Quietly being who I used to be, Bringing to life all the joys and the sorrows, Days that can’t die while they still live in me. Holidays linger and happy times glisten; I can see everyone active and well. I can still hear them if only I listen, Feeling each motion and breathing each smell. Life has such treasures that time’s always stealing; Nothing can ever entirely stay. While you are young, you can capture each feeling; Make all the memories you can every day. Source: From the net

In life's pathway ........... U meet a lot of people ! Some become ur friends ...some u wont even know ... Some u cant stay without ..some u r happy without ... Some Get very close to ur heart ... and some u hate even to think about ... There are lots of ups and downs ...... which u cant avoid .. u got to pass thru every obstacle .. u got to experience the pain of walking of thorns ... and also the joy of staying with roses ... Lots of winds,rains and sunshines ............. U have to pass thru winter to experience Spring ... U get to experience the sweetness of care , affection ,togetherness ... U also get to experience the pinch of seperation ... loneliness ... hatredness ... U pass all those and get to the end of ur Journey of life .... At the end its the Sweet Memories ............ that keeps u going ....though u dont have the strngth to fight the thorns ...to get to the roses ... So ... Dont cry its over ... Smile that it Happened :) Memory is a way of holding onto the

When u get into the house … dead tired by the depressing day … the dog running to u wagging its tail makes u feel glad … When u are down … and sitting with ur friend … Words are not required …just the feeling that someone’s with u ..gives you a lot of Comfort … When u feel helpless ...... and nothing seems to be right ... u feel so much better when ur dear one holds ur hand ... Silence speaks more ... there are so many things which neednt be said explicitely but silence says it all ... things like ... I care ... I am Happy for u... I am with u ... I understand ... I wud stand by u ... Are expressed ...silently ... May be i have experienced silence more ..........

Heaven Is ........... Pouring rain ........ Empty road ...... Walking in rain .......... Silently .... 2 Friends ... in 2 different parts of the world ... 2 pcs/cellphones Pouring their hearts to each other …. Chatting about everything under the sun.... Sea shore .... Cool water under ur feet .... cool breeze running blowing ........ Lying on grass and enjoy Lovely Music under the starry sky .... Playing with a puppy .... un conditional Love ...affection ............ ..................and it goes on ...................

Heaven is …………. 4 friends On dining table …. A pack of cards …….. Raining outside ………. Hot Bhajiya on the plate … One kitchen ……. Lots of suggestions and culinary skills….. Lots of noise ........... Delicious dinner done … Lazy day ….One carom board … Chilly weather outside Big bowl full of Spicy Bhel … Winning and losing ............ Cold night……. Cozy couch … Looooooooooooong hours of chatting …….. First bubbly bubbly …then … serious serious ………. 5 friends One car … Driving on the coast … With “Summer of 69” playing at max volume on the deck ……….. Lovely Morning … Snowing outside … Have steaming cup of tea and then Play in Snow … One map ... donno where to go ... ask people ... end up somewhere ... Lovely Beach....

Read it somewhere ..... Don’t care so much for me, I may get used to it. Don’t come so near to me, I may not be able to detach from it. Don’t put so much faith in me, I may not be able to handle it. Don’t touch me the way u do, I may not be able to get over it. Don’t become a part of my life, Coz without u, I won’t be able to live it. Don’t make me fall for u, I may not be able to fall out of it. Don’t come into my life, If u have to leave one day. Don’t give me the hope, That it’s forever u r gonna stay. Coz love is an emotion I won’t be able to hide, When love isn’t reciprocated with love, It hurts deep down inside. Don’t start something That I won’t be able to end. Don’t make me believe That u can’t be more than a friend. Coz at the end of it all, I don’t wanna hear u say, That,” I’m sorry.............”

School : Full enthusiasm … discipline .. lots of activities … music dance speeches … sweets at the end ……..kids all dressed up for the occasion ..wake up early ..be in school … Offices : Bare minimum …flag hoisting …max national anthem played on a music player….then tea party … Some social organizations : visit ashrams ..spend time with orphan kids …or visit aged homes … distribute sweets … etc etc City : sales …discounts … some decorations ..some flower shows …rangoli exhibitions … books exhibition etc etc Auto drivers : flag hoisting … Gandhijis foto pooja …. Play desh bhakthi geeth at max volume …. Jhanda on all their autos …festive mood for them … Some Indians : Indian flag on their house doors … rangoli with flag colors … a BIG flag on their bikes … IT companies : decoration if time permits that too some people would be assigned to do that task …. Flag hoisting in some …… some speech and cultural function probably…but not mandatory to attend …so very less junta … most of them enjo

My mind is blank ............ With nothing to think ..or with so much thoughts that nothing takes priority Tired of listening ... tired of talking ... About things that happened.... and about things that will never happen.... Tired of giving explanations to people about my behaviour .... Tired of trying to cope up with reality .... Tired of thinking that something good will happen ..when whatever is happenign is bad !!!! Tired of fighting with society about what i feel is right !!! Tired of convincing people .. Tired of being strong .... Tired of being independant ... Expressing anger when i fell helpless ... Smiling when its hurting to the core at the bottom of my heart ... Wish i could avoid going through this ... wish i never had to face this turn of life ... Feel like i want to take some rest ..take a break but ... Same time i feel that i shud tire myself so much that i should feel the ache in every corner of me ... woow contradictions isnt it ? hmm life is full of them ... contrad

Isn't it ? One moment u feel at the top of the world and the very next u feel that u are in hell ... cant just do anything about it i guess !

“Oh No not again” !! This is the most common sentence is use through out the day !! That’s coz I generally mess up things a lot … Leave the keys inside and look for the keys on returning back ………… Board the wrong bus and go to some station and find out how to come back … Roam around aimlessly to find the right road …but don’t dare to ask anyone ………. Add sugar to salad instead of salt … Throw the orange instead of the peel …………. Show the left hand to auto driver when I have to ask him to turn right ……….. And the list just goes on…………………………………

Some days just seem not right but some all things seem to fall in place … 2 extremities … on one day u frown at whatever happens where as on another u smile even at the biggest problem and waive it off !! some days u feel active even after working for 12+ hours and some days early in moring u are tired ..... some days whatever u do is right and some days u goof up everything !! some days u get good deals on whatever u buy but somedays u lose cash even if u dont buy anything !! ha ha .......... isn’t it strange ???? But they are both the sides of same coin I guess got to get on with it !!