Words Unsaid...Random Thoughts.. Memories and Experiences

Heaven is …………. 4 friends On dining table …. A pack of cards …….. Raining outside ………. Hot Bhajiya on the plate … One kitchen ……. Lots of suggestions and culinary skills….. Lots of noise ........... Delicious dinner done … Lazy day ….One carom board … Chilly weather outside Big bowl full of Spicy Bhel … Winning and losing ............ Cold night……. Cozy couch … Looooooooooooong hours of chatting …….. First bubbly bubbly …then … serious serious ………. 5 friends One car … Driving on the coast … With “Summer of 69” playing at max volume on the deck ……….. Lovely Morning … Snowing outside … Have steaming cup of tea and then Play in Snow … One map ... donno where to go ... ask people ... end up somewhere ... Lovely Beach.... ...

Read it somewhere ..... Don’t care so much for me, I may get used to it. Don’t come so near to me, I may not be able to detach from it. Don’t put so much faith in me, I may not be able to handle it. Don’t touch me the way u do, I may not be able to get over it. Don’t become a part of my life, Coz without u, I won’t be able to live it. Don’t make me fall for u, I may not be able to fall out of it. Don’t come into my life, If u have to leave one day. Don’t give me the hope, That it’s forever u r gonna stay. Coz love is an emotion I won’t be able to hide, When love isn’t reciprocated with love, It hurts deep down inside. Don’t start something That I won’t be able to end. Don’t make me believe That u can’t be more than a friend. Coz at the end of it all, I don’t wanna hear u say, That,” I’m sorry.............”

School : Full enthusiasm … discipline .. lots of activities … music dance speeches … sweets at the end ……..kids all dressed up for the occasion ..wake up early ..be in school … Offices : Bare minimum …flag hoisting …max national anthem played on a music player….then tea party … Some social organizations : visit ashrams ..spend time with orphan kids …or visit aged homes … distribute sweets … etc etc City : sales …discounts … some decorations ..some flower shows …rangoli exhibitions … books exhibition etc etc Auto drivers : flag hoisting … Gandhijis foto pooja …. Play desh bhakthi geeth at max volume …. Jhanda on all their autos …festive mood for them … Some Indians : Indian flag on their house doors … rangoli with flag colors … a BIG flag on their bikes … IT companies : decoration if time permits that too some people would be assigned to do that task …. Flag hoisting in some …… some speech and cultural function probably…but not mandatory to attend …so very less junta … most of them enjo...

My mind is blank ............ With nothing to think ..or with so much thoughts that nothing takes priority Tired of listening ... tired of talking ... About things that happened.... and about things that will never happen.... Tired of giving explanations to people about my behaviour .... Tired of trying to cope up with reality .... Tired of thinking that something good will happen ..when whatever is happenign is bad !!!! Tired of fighting with society about what i feel is right !!! Tired of convincing people .. Tired of being strong .... Tired of being independant ... Expressing anger when i fell helpless ... Smiling when its hurting to the core at the bottom of my heart ... Wish i could avoid going through this ... wish i never had to face this turn of life ... Feel like i want to take some rest ..take a break but ... Same time i feel that i shud tire myself so much that i should feel the ache in every corner of me ... woow contradictions isnt it ? hmm life is full of them ... contrad...

Isn't it ? One moment u feel at the top of the world and the very next u feel that u are in hell ... cant just do anything about it i guess !

“Oh No not again” !! This is the most common sentence is use through out the day !! That’s coz I generally mess up things a lot … Leave the keys inside and look for the keys on returning back ………… Board the wrong bus and go to some station and find out how to come back … Roam around aimlessly to find the right road …but don’t dare to ask anyone ………. Add sugar to salad instead of salt … Throw the orange instead of the peel …………. Show the left hand to auto driver when I have to ask him to turn right ……….. And the list just goes on…………………………………

Some days just seem not right but some all things seem to fall in place … 2 extremities … on one day u frown at whatever happens where as on another u smile even at the biggest problem and waive it off !! some days u feel active even after working for 12+ hours and some days early in moring u are tired ..... some days whatever u do is right and some days u goof up everything !! some days u get good deals on whatever u buy but somedays u lose cash even if u dont buy anything !! ha ha .......... isn’t it strange ???? But they are both the sides of same coin I guess got to get on with it !!