Words Unsaid...Random Thoughts.. Memories and Experiences

Donno y .. this is one thing which is the reply to many of the questions asked ... guess i use it a lot ... like "donno y but feeling down".."donno y but it isnt working" ..."donno y she didnt like it ".."donno y they dont understand" etc etc ... But i always keep wondering is it really that i donno the reason for it or i just cant get them to my mind !! in fact i just cant get the reason for why my mood changes ... why i remain silent ..or why i feel good ... so i just say donno y but this is what i feel ... y is that sometimes without hving any reason u feel good? n same way without hving any reason u feel bad?? i keep scratching my head to find reply but in vain ... guess something running at the back of mind makes this happen might not be something related to present situation!! but y is that i dont get the reason when i think of it ??

Its the small small things which we enjoy the max ...and these things cannot be bought with money ...... feels so good when u think back about them ... some of the things that give me a tickle whenever i think of them: preparing tea or coffee at 2 a.m during exam study holidays (that too black coffe and black tea most of the times )...take the tea and go to the terrace wth a friend just with an intension to freshen up so that we can sit and study the rest of the night ...and then end up talking till 5 a.m about all the things under sun ... then last mein late realisation that neither did we sleep nor did we study !! get a hand written letter from a friend !! get wet in the rain and on top of that to avoid catching cold drink tea in a road side shop take a lift in a lorry ...after waiting fro around 15 in for bus small small treats without any reason ... where in we wud share the pastries and pizzas ... playing with ur kitten loong loong talks with ur best pal !! chatting through chits...

I guess they say right …atleast if not 100% but then ya it works for most of the times …. when the start of the day is good …whole day is good …but when its bad … hmm things aren’t that nice … :( … If I start my day with some enthu the enthu is carried thru out the day n its true the other way round too …. Has this got to do something with our thinking too ??? could be … coz whenever we have some kind of positive thoughts we are cheerful …. And full of life But then........ when something is not right u feel bad and u lose interest …n also all the enthu goes down the drain …. So cud be that when something goes wrong at the start of the day we just get a negative feeling … and so we carry that along with us the whole day … May b if we forget it and carry a good feeling with us …that day might turn out to be good !! Lemme try that today ..... :)

Friend ..... This word carries a lot of weightage ... A kind of complicated role to play ..... So many hidden reponsibilities ...so much fun ... so many goodie gooodie things that come with it ... I just realised a few more things that are assoicated with this Role ... u cud say its a responsibility .... ya it is ... maintain confidentiality of the revealed things ... n never discuss it with anyone else ........ we say smthings to our nearest n dearst friends only with an intention to lighten our hearts .... may b 90% of the times all a friend has to do is just say a few words of sympathy and nothing more required.... u feel so good by just telling it to them ,....may b some times all the friend can do is keep quite ... no words said ... but u feel so good .... as if half the problem is solved !! but then ..... some times .... some things get messed up when the inner most feelings of ur heart are revealed to soem third person .. by ur friend ... :( that person might b as close as u...

Loong long time since i blogged !! Hmm may be people say it right !! if u dont manage ur time then u rnt fit for anything .... guess thats what happened with me too ! :(tied up with work ...unable to balance work life ... work took over my private life ... :( so almost 20 hours ina day spent with it ... why do i do this ? is it only me who's facing it or there are some people like me ? I too feel like doing what i like ...just laze around ...sit on the window side enjoying the breeze and sipping hot coffee .. but .......... when will i do it ? hmm may b i need to be organised !! but i dont like being too organised also :P guess its the problem with my thinking and nothing to do with the time sense and all that !!! :)

Silence .................... " A man is known by the silence he keeps. " --Oliver Herford, American author (1863-1935) " True friendship comes when silence between two people is comfortable . "--Dave Tyson Gentry Woow silence has so much significance !! may b i never realised untill recently !! may be coz I had always been hearing that we shud speak up .....we shudnt keep quite .... if we remain silent they wud pull us down etc etc ......... but may b now i feel that silence can speak more than words .... It can express any kind of a emotion ..... It cud be expressing ur diagreement to something whats said .... or wildness to what's happening ..... or disappointment in job hunting ..... or ur thankfulness towards a friend for being there with u !! Is it true that u feel comfortable with a person when the silence between the two is comfortable ? .... hmmmmmmmm... lemme think over ... n i guess thats right .... when u dont feel comfortable with silence then i gu...

How many times do we ask this question !! Everytime something goes wrong the first thing what comes out of our mouth is why me ! ... i used to use this a lot.... when in school .. when i used to get some scolding i used to ask myself why of all the people i got scoldings ? ... then when in college got some bad marks in labs .. again why me ?... when had to hear some comments from my relatives again why me ! But......................... I dont ever remember asking myself this question when ..... i got the highest marks ... or when i won some competition ... or when i meet nice sweet people ... nor when i get the best of people around as my friends ... or when i get a job in one of the Best firms !!.. or when i hear some of the best compliments about myself :) why do i do this ? ... No replies coming out from me !!